IntroVerse 1I Saw Your Name Light Up My PhoneAnd I Stared At It For An HourI Wanted You To Come Back HomeBut I'm The One Who Closed The DoorI Say I Need Somebody CloseThen Panic When They Get Too NearI Turn A Little Love To SmokeAnd Act Like I Was Never ScaredPre-ChorusGod, I Wish I Could ExplainWhy I Run When I Wanna StayI Swear I Don't Mean To Make You HurtBut Somehow I Always Make It WorseChorusI Push Everyone AwayThen I Wonder Why I'm LonelyBuild A Wall Around My HeartAnd Get Mad When No One Knows MeI Keep Begging People To StayThen I Give Them Every ReasonMaybe I'm The One Who's BreakingEverything I'm Trying To KeepAnd I Hate That I Do ItI Hate That I Know ItI Watch Them Walk AwayAnd I Know It's My FaultVerse 2You Knew The Parts I Never ShowThe Ugly Ones I Try To HideAnd Instead Of Letting You Get CloseI Found A Reason To Say GoodbyeNow I Replay Every WordLike Maybe I Can Change The PastBut Sorry Doesn't Fix The HurtAnd Wanting You Won't Bring You BackPre-ChorusGod, I Wish I Could ExplainWhy I Run When I Wanna StayI Swear I Don't Mean To Make You HurtBut Somehow I Always Make It WorseChorusI Push Everyone AwayThen I Wonder Why I'm LonelyBuild A Wall Around My HeartAnd Get Mad When No One Knows MeI Keep Begging People To StayThen I Give Them Every ReasonMaybe I'm The One Who's BreakingEverything I'm Trying To KeepAnd I Hate That I Do ItI Hate That I Know ItI Watch Them Walk AwayAnd I Know It's My FaultBridgeMaybe I'm AfraidThat If You Really Knew MeYou'd Leave AnywaySo I Leave FirstAnd Call It Self-PreservationWhen Really I'm Just TerrifiedOf Being Somebody's DisappointmentAnd I Don't Wanna Be AloneI Just Don't Know How To Let Somebody Love MeChorusI Push Everyone AwayThen I Wonder Why I'm LonelyBuild A Wall Around My HeartAnd Get Mad When No One Knows MeI Keep Begging People To StayThen I Give Them Every ReasonMaybe I'm The One Who's BreakingEverything I'm Trying To KeepAnd I Hate That I Do ItI Hate That I Know ItI Watch Them Walk AwayAnd I Know It's My Fault